"Smile, 'cos I can't be with you anymore."

Jan. 11. 2012

Words couldn’t really explain how I shed tears because of love that couldn’t match my time.  I have loved and was hoping to beloved in return.  Now I’m longing and occasionally shedding tears for the love that I once wish to be mine.

It was during the sunrise when he came and hugged me tightly.  I wasn’t able to move then, nor utter a single word.  I couldn’t forget how it felt: comfortable; secured, and loved.  It was as if I’m finally home.  The warm of love was creeping throughout my veins as I rested into his arms.  I couldn’t help yearning while he made me feel how to beloved.  How I wish I could tell how I died everyday waiting for him.

He taught me once again to stand firmly and be so strong, but when he left, I forgot all of these.  And he came again.  He embraced me as if it was the last day, and told me that I should be of courage because he couldn’t dwell with me this time and to the near future.  He can’t be with me anymore.  I should fix my life so I may stand strong and endure pain.  Then a kiss on a cheek bid him to disappear.  He will never come back again.

Once again he made me feel so special.  He made me feel that I’m the one even if in reality I can’t be with him.  He just came to leave me.  Light stroked on my eyes.  I woke up and realized that it was just a dream.  How I wish I could feel the same embrace in real life.  How I wish it would be him.  God knows how I longed, and He knows how I've loved someone a thousand years before..